Clown-Porn Pioneer Receives Terminal Cancer Diagnosis

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Unconditional love is a funny thing, and you are blessed if you have ever really felt it. When I speak of love and loving another human being, two people come to my mind: Hollie Stevens and Eric Cash. Hollie and Eric do not have a traditional love story, but it is one of the most beautiful stories that I have ever heard.

Many of you know that Hollie Stevens, the porn clown pioneer, has been battling aggressive cancer, but not many of you know about the man who has stood by her and loved her through one of the darkest journeys a human being can go through.

Hollie and Eric are a couple I have watched from afar for a while. When you see them, you see what love, loyalty, and compassion are all about. I remember when he packed up his life and career in Los Angeles in order to move to San Francisco when it became clear her health was not improving. Even now, as her health gets more precarious, these two took the very bold step of getting married. In a very simple ceremony in a hospital meeting room on June 10, 2012, these two brave individuals locked hands and promised to love one another for the rest of their lives.
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When most people get married "for the rest of your life" usually means a long time.
Unfortunately for Hollie and Eric, that's not the case. Hollie is one of the most amazing
and brave individuals I have had the privilege of knowing. The last time I wrote about
Hollie, I talked about her on-going fight with stage four cancer. I wanted to follow that
article up with a fantastic story about how she kicked the shit out of her odds, but
sadly that is not what I will be reporting today.





According to a private press release from Laura Lasky of Solace SF:

"Hollie Stevens was taken to the ER in San Francisco on Monday, June 4. Seven hours later, she was admitted and initially treated for severe dehydration, due to the chemotherapy, and two blood clots (one in her right upper arm, and another in her jugular.) Four days later, multiple tests confirmed what we feared: Hollie now has active cancer cells around and in her brain. Hollie has been given, in the words of her team of doctors, 'a few weeks to three months' to live, if that. Presently, she is receiving pain management and has begun radiation to help reduce the migraine-like headaches the cancer has caused. When Hollie is released from the hospital later this week, she will go home with Eric to their apartment where Hospice will be called."

The tragic thing is that Eric proposed before they knew the cancer metastasized to the lining surrounding her brain. These newlyweds will bravely embark upon a journey that they both know will be shorter than they would have liked. As awful as that sounds, in a way it's also beautiful. The story of Hollie and Eric is one that I will never forget. Not because she has cancer and he stood by her, but because they remind me of why love songs exist, why poetry is written, and why people in this jaded world will lock hands, exchange rings, and take a leap of faith with the rest of their lives.

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At this time, Hollie is asking for privacy, but she would like to say thank you to everyone who has supported her along the way. Death is a very triggering subject because no one knows what comes after it. They say one of the biggest regrets people have when they get close to exiting this earthly plane is not being loved or loving someone in a complete way. At least Hollie Stevens will leave this earth knowing that she was not alone, and that she has someone who will stand by her until the end. She got the greatest gift of unconditional love and support from her husband. Let's hope that all of us can be that fortunate when our time comes.

Hollie Stevens is taking this time to celebrate what is left of her young life. She is not asking for a donation of any kind. What she would like are memories for her and Eric to remember. If you have any photos of Hollie, or Hollie and Eric, please send them to helpinghollie@gmail.com. Also, if you have any Hollie stories, she would love to hear them all, so please e-mail those as well. If you have any questions, you can also contact Laura Lasky from Solace SF about any additional needs Hollie may have.

You are in my thoughts, Hollie and Eric. May your short journey together be filled with more love than you ever imagined. 

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Vanessa L. Pinto (aka Fleur De Lis SF) documented a year of her sex life on her blog Whatever You Desire. She also blogs for the Huffington Post and is a contributing writer with Whore! Magazine. She has a degree in political science from Cal Poly San Luis Obispo.

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44 comments
tolerable2
tolerable2

Many of you who personally knew Tia should of received an email.  I hope it speaks to your heart about the truth of  Hollie/Tia's family.  Eric and  Laura should be so ashamed of what they have done.  Her mother and brother who truly, truly loved her should of been the one's holding  her hand when she passed into eternity.  Please don't let Eric and Laura deceive you anymore.

 

 

tolerable2
tolerable2

Ok.  I removed the post per Laura, but Hollie's mother has still not received Hollie's ashes and/or any of her personal effects.  Does this seem right.?  Her mother and brother never received a notice.  Now they won't send her Hollie's ashes?????  What's wrong with this picture??????

Tolerable2
Tolerable2

It would be very nice if Eric would call her mother and/or brother.  They are devastated,  Eric didn't even call her mother when she died.  Do we have any mother's out there who would like to comment!!!!!!!!!

romulus
romulus

I have known Hollie for 9 years and she had such an open mind and free spirit and anything goes attitude, that whatever she did to make a living was done with passion. She was one of the nicest sweetest girls I've ever met, and every time I was with her, I wanted to see more of her. She was kind, gentle, funny and a positive person. She was way too young and too good of a person to die so soon. Whatever her interests were, I know that she probably went into the experience with an open mind and was willing to try anything once. The clown porn, the corpses thing, the bdsm videos were all  ways to pay her bills, and she probably enjoyed them after awhile to keep doing them. I know this because the fetish videos we made with her were done when she was new to the industry, and she had never tried anything like them before but gave a great performance. The reason everyone is so sad about her is because she was such a nice person. If she was a horrible human being, nobody would go to these efforts to show an outpouring of love. Trust me if you knew her, you would be very sad.

eric cash
eric cash

I didn't realize there were more comments on this article until vanessa wrote to me, telling me about Oganzo's comment, Oganzo, M3SK, Noelesmawmaw, thank you SO much.  I can't even begging to describe the state that I am in, I cry all day, every day, constantly, with 10 minute breaks, but your comments have made it a little better.  Thank you, seriously, I am so happy that she has affected you that way, even after her death, and I am so thankful for the kind things you've said to me.

Firestarr79
Firestarr79

You were a blessing and a rock for her, most people trend to run away from this monster, like i said earlier, i have metastatic ovarian cancer. You are just as wonderful as Holly was, because you stayed by her side until the end. I hope you will be at peace one day, and realize you will see her again. Love and light.

M3SK
M3SK

hollie you will be missed. Eric. thank you for making her the happiest girl on earth.

Noelesmawmaw
Noelesmawmaw

R.I.P.  Hollie,Eric may your heart heal one day,so sorry for your loss..

Oganzo
Oganzo

I'm simply amazed at what Vanessa has written about Hollie. I didn't know her, though I've lived in the US for some time. I would have loved to know such a person. As a Christian, I learn so many things from different people along the way, to become a better person. Having read what you have written on Hollie, I can say she is truly amazing (and those commenting down here who knew her have attested to that). Probably the reason why Eric, with all the love in the world, stood by her, because she fulfilled him!! I've seen people suffer from this disease, and it is cruel, yet those people put up fights like no one has ever seen!! Hollie was a very beautiful woman through and through from testimonies!! However, more than that, is the story of a fight she's put up, absolutely unbelievable!! Christ fought relentlessly for us, and it is really beautiful to see that still today, in this world, there are those who fight till the end, because they believe. She's given me a reason to look into myself, into my judgmental attitudes, my criticisms, my self-righteousness and holier than though mentality, and really ask myself "Are you really fighting for someone??" "Do you really love anyone with this fake holy life that you are living??" Because at the end of the day, love is what makes the way. For all of us out there who may want to call Hollie names (I've seen photos of her, and I can tell you that she is beautiful) because of her lifestyle, think again because at least she loved someone, and did not put on two faces, she was herself through out, a sign of someone who is free indeed. Only God can judge, we have no right to do so, but we have been commanded to love. So the question is, do we love? Do we radiate love wherever we are? At least Hollie did! Thank you Hollie, and may you Rest in Peace 

James J B
James J B

One of the most touching stories I've read in a long time.  I can only imagine what a horribly fearful experience it would be to have such aggressive cancer.  It has been said that 90% of all cancers are environmentally caused.  I'm not looking at smoking or any "vices" here;  I say this because I wonder if it was some obscure (yet extremely dangeous) carcinogen that no one understands or knows about.  Could have been something in clown makeup, etc.  It would be worth investigating considering Hollie's tragic departure at such a young age.  R.I.P.

Luckyluckycat
Luckyluckycat

very sad yes. a lot of beautiful wonderful people who have families and children die everyday from cancer.

April King
April King

 It really saddens me to see some people commenting so negatively on another person's life like this. She battled cancer and still succumbed to it. I do not know Hollie, but I know people lover her, including her husband. It's sad that you have to waste your life posting horrible comments about someone dying or has died, and because you didn't agree with their lifestyle. It's their life and you cannot change that. Stop hating and start loving, like Eric has showed his undying love for Hollie. Maybe you will find some happiness in your miserable pathetic life. 

April King
April King

It really saddens me to see some people commenting so negatively on another person's life like this. She battled cancer and still succumbed to it. I do not know Hollie, but I know people lover her, including her husband. It's sad that you have to waste your life posting horrible comments about someone dying or has died, and because you didn't agree with their lifestyle. It's their life and you cannot change that. Stop hating and start loving, like Eric has showed his undying love for Hollie. Maybe you will find some happiness in your miserable pathetic life. 

April King
April King

It really saddens me to see some people commenting so negatively on another person's life like this. She battled cancer and still succumbed to it. I do not know Hollie, but I know people lover her, including her husband. It's sad that you have to waste your life posting horrible comments about someone dying or has died, and because you didn't agree with their lifestyle. It's their life and you cannot change that. Stop hating and start loving, like Eric has showed his undying love for Hollie. Maybe you will find some happiness in your miserable pathetic life.

Firestarr
Firestarr

Wow, you really are as stupid as your terrible grammar and writings seem to show you as, I guarantee you that you NEVER knew Holly, because if your pathetic lower then a snakes bellies a$$ would NEVER say such disgusting and hateful things about such a beautiful (inside and out) human being. "people"(and I use that term VERY loosely)like you seriously do not deserve the gift of life. Also, I would suggest you continue with you're numerous apologies because I'm pretty positive number one you've never known her ever, because two, you would know who she rolls with, and they are really not people you want to s anger. IJS....

Klomnbam
Klomnbam

 ecuse me please i never write again!!!!!! sorry me please

Klomnbam
Klomnbam

 sorry ecuse me i want remove it but don't know how i never write again excuse me all please

Lauralaskysf
Lauralaskysf

i would advise you to please remove these  harassing remarks. your ip address, as well as the emails you have sent have been noted and we will contact those we need to if need be. you have a history of this with other adult performers. 

Steve270000
Steve270000

I had the pleasure of meeting Hollie about a year ago. She was as gracious and kind as one could ever hope another human being to be. While this is very sad news, it sure sounds like there's  a lot of people out there whose lives were better for having had the chance to know Hollie. In the end, I think most of us could only hope for such fulfillment. 

Klomnbam
Klomnbam

Hollie, you are corpse already it is it what you love biatch

tolerable2
tolerable2

Do u not have any respect for the dead.  What's wrong with you.  Her family has been looking at these messages and her mother is devastated by your horrible remarks.  This is had enough on the family.  If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all! 

 

Klomnbam
Klomnbam

 hi i know this b@@#$% too she was into death obsession, corpse, pain and s/m she is/WAS nasty psycho i think that b@#$% has orgasm because she love sick situations i glad that thios garbage will be off as soon as possible tom

Ermit.
Ermit.

Merci et courage !

Jdc
Jdc

Get your facts right before you start commenting on anything. if anything people like YOU.... from the bottom of the barrel cesspool of life should cease to exist.

Dgafbro311
Dgafbro311

What kind of self respecting person smokes and drinks during their chemo treatment? All this love for someone who has no love for herself. What an unworthy subject- hick with no skills sticks shit up her twat and people think she's a hero... Gimme a break.

M3SK
M3SK

fuckin piece of shit. why the fuck r you even commenting? your one of those trolls that live at your mommys, are single and probably molested by your daddy! 

Lauralaskysf
Lauralaskysf

as someone who has been with Hollie for the last 15 months of her diagnosis...you are wholly mistaken. you have sent Hollie emails which are not only cruel, but are harassing. you've done the same with all adult performers who have been terminally ill and passed away. i would advise you to remove your remarks, immediately or we will seek legal action. we have your IP, you've left a trail and we are asking you to leave a dying woman in peace.

tolerable2
tolerable2

You are nothing but a phony  What you did was scam Hollie out of the people that loved her most -- her mother and her brother.  How do you sleep at night and look into the mirror.

josh haus
josh haus

30 years old her and my big sister where best friends for 18 years

Dgafbro311
Dgafbro311

That's what happens when you don't respect your body, yourself, and the people around you. Good riddance to another people-user.

Laeonis
Laeonis

You don't know anything about this woman, you have no right to judge her or assume she is not respecting herself or using people.  I hope you burn in the bile that you spit bitch.

Ron
Ron

Slap Death in the face with a rubber chicken. He hates that.

Julie Andrew
Julie Andrew

May the rest of your life be filled with love and happiness you deserve.

Maharajahemu
Maharajahemu

hollie is a warrior and i salute her. both need all the love and respect everyone can give them now-eric will need even more once his angel warrior has fought her last battle.

Don Gaffney
Don Gaffney

Ive known Hollie since I moved to LA after returning from Iraq. As a soldier Ive seen a lot but I have never seen anyone handle death with the grace, courage and strength that Hollie has.She is a warrior and she has humbled me. I love you, dork...Rob, Kevin and I have been blessed with your love, friendship and humor. Youre a star, baby. 

Dave
Dave

I hope that her remaining days are filled with love and life and, when her time comes, I pray that she may have everlasting life.

O_g_beeble
O_g_beeble

Been a long time old friend. You are thought of often. I'm saddened by this. My thoughts go out to you and your husband.

Peter
Peter

Thank you to Vanessa Pinto for articulating and sharing this both tragic and heartwarming story of human love, hope, and fortitude.  Bravo to all concerned.

Cat
Cat

Thank you Vanessa!  Your words are perfectly true and beautiful!  As a close friend of Hollie's, I know she will appreciate your touching article.

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